tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71474741226528313102024-02-21T15:01:52.028+08:00Eternally Ethereal, Not Of This WorldWhen my thoughts and feelings pour out, I wanna know where would they take me...♡Genelady Erickahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00477470781873653168noreply@blogger.comBlogger19125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7147474122652831310.post-37697585885522150882017-12-11T12:14:00.001+08:002017-12-22T16:03:05.524+08:00I Left My Heart In Japan<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Sharing my Japan experience. My sepanx fever is still on-going. I love everything about it!!! Our vid is now up! Travel with us and take pleasure in enjoying the wonders of the ”Land of the Rising Sun”. 😊😍🇯🇵💕<br />
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Japan, you killed my feet, emptied my wallet, and filled my heart with so much joy and love. I just can’t say Goodbye—not yet, not now, never. 😊😍😭🇯🇵🎌💕 #OnceUponInJapan #GeneWillGoPlaces #AutumnIsHere<br />
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🎥 Awesome video edit and creation all cto Lio Obligado / <a href="https://www.facebook.com/lioobligado2/">Around the World with MadMan</a><br />
📍Osaka-Kyoto-Tokyo, Japan<br />
🗓November 14-22, 2017<br />
👥 Juna Ramirez Xie Ventura Alven Alinan Karen Ann Merza Midori Kuroko Lio Obligado<br />
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See our travel video here: <a href="https://www.facebook.com/lioobligado2/videos/1939492572745726/">I Left My Heart In Japan</a></div>
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<i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">“Nobody has ever measured, not even poets, how much the heart can hold.” ―Zelda Fitzgerald</i><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It's been a long time since I feel this way,<br />I'm trying to write you beautifully more than I can imagine.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Those beautiful but sad eyes,<br />You're exactly the poem I wanted to write.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Like you are surrounded by bright lights and different hues,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">And when closely looked at,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">You're more than the colors of the whole spectrum...</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The more I delve into your eyes,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The more I wonder on your beauty, your strength, your callousness, and your warmth.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Your voice momentarily played back in my head again,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Maybe I wouldn't get enough,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Even if it is ringing ten times over.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The stars, the sun, and even the moon collide,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">To form this instantaneous crash of specks inside...</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Looking at you feels like looking at sunrise,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The dust, the morning dew, and the cool breeze merged into one.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Like I'm facing the crimson blaze of fire,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Captivating. </span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Radiating. </span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Fiery.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">There's so much passion in totality...</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I rethink the times I felt like you're there,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The times that I felt like you understand, like I matter.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Have you ever thought that maybe y</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">ou are important as you think you are to me?</span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #292f33; font-family: 'Gotham Narrow SSm', sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 22px; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Perhaps I am remembering you in the kindest, sincerest, and in the most heartfelt possible way.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It felt so surreal more than vividly real... </span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">This beating of my heart never felt this rushed,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Like it was, and is still going fast paced all around the corner.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I couldn't get a catch of what it is supposed to be.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">All I know is this ray of hope that maybe we will find each other.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Maybe later or maybe tomorrow,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Or maybe the days after that or maybe the years to come,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I don't know exactly when but I know it would be perfect...</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Courage, dear heart.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">No need to fear.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">No need to hold back.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">And maybe, just maybe, this is right</span></span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―maybe, just maybe, I could feel again...</i>Genelady Erickahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00477470781873653168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7147474122652831310.post-73038164072778357912014-07-01T14:50:00.007+08:002014-07-03T09:48:33.297+08:00Waiting While Raining<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">“I do know that waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one’s thoughts. It is easy to talk oneself into a decision that has no permanence–easier sometimes than to wait patiently.” ―Elisabeth Elliot</i><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Feels like I am back on that road again.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">That word never fails to amaze me.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I could not even think about not relating that word to every tidbit of my life</span></span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―it is like a part of me that comprises the years of my existence.</i><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Have you waited for something?<br />
Or someone, perhaps?<br />
How does it feel?<br /><b><i>I mean, "How does it really feel?"</i></b></span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Hmmm.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Maybe we all have the same answers once in a while.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Sometimes, it is tiring.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Saddening.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Painful.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Infuriating.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">And a whole lot more.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Whatever the feeling may be, one thing I know I am certain of</span></span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―<b>we are hoping</b>.</i><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">In that moment, in the span of time we are waiting, at the very deep, intimate, core of our hearts, we definitely know that we are hoping for it to come to us.<i> </i><b>Even if it is the tiniest hint of bravery to continue to hope for it through the passage of time.</b></span><br />
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<i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Looking back, the past year has been a fruitful one for me. I have experienced so many things, and encountered so many great people along the way. For that's the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance, but even the most beautiful days eventually have their ends</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―</span><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">their inexplicable sunsets. </span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I have seen that part</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―</span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">wherein the flowers have not bloomed yet, and the sun has seemed to be covered by dark gray clouds. I guess, </span></span><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">that season</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"> must come to an end </span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">to make way for a new one but</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"> it was a closing period for me that left me wide-struck and silent at the same time.</span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It was an unexpected turn of events.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It was a nightmare. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I was left with nothing but tons of tons of questions of "why" and "how" did it all happen.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I was not prepared for it and maybe I have not realized it until it happened.</span><br />
<b style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am a strong person, or I thought I was but I am not, not until I have God.</b><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">That moment when I poured out my heart to HIM again and again and again, just so to put all the hurt away. </span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I could not care less if I felt so broken and helpless to HIM, all I know is I am in need of the loving arms of my Father</span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―my Daddy God. HE is the only One that stays when all have fade away. </i><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">They have always been precious to HIM.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">HE perfectly understands and HE cares for me.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Though my heart is aching, I hold on to HIS promises, to HIS truths, to HIS Word.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I have nothing else to turn to but HIM.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I know HE will never leave me or forsake me.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Oftentimes, I have said to myself, "I have endured so many hardships before, I should be stronger now." But then I realized that I am a work in progress here. Changing from glory to glory, day by day by my Maker. </span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>I am not the standard, I was not, and I will never be.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>I need HIS grace.</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I remember that one thing, I have been praying to the Lord since then.</span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"> I know it means a lot to HIM as it means a lot to me. It is one of my deepest heart's desires and one of the longings of my insatiable dreams</span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―a breakthrough in my career.</i><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It might sound big, folly or unbelievable but that is how great God is.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">HE answered my prayer.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The waiting is finally over.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">After months and months of striving, persisting, and crying, it paved way.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It has arrived.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It is worth it.</span></span><br />
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<i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It is that time when you sat at the far end corner of your room, your eyes closed and your heart opened, you reminisce God's works in your life then suddenly fat tears streamed down your face. That precious moment when you pound your chest 'cause you can't contain the warmth inside of you, and all you could do is kneel, pray, and cry for joy. No words needed, for God knows exactly what is going on. HE doesn't require eloquence and pretty words but a sincere, honest, exposed, unmasked, empty, and a laid bare heart</i><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―ALL FOR HIM.</i></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Waiting on God, knowing what I am waiting from HIM, and trusting HIM at the same time, in spite of all the things that I have been through, is definitely priceless.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>All along, I thought I was waiting for God to do something</b></span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―</i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>to move, to turn the situation around but I didn't realize that the whole time, the person I was waiting for was myself.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>I was so engrossed with the difficulties going on, I overlooked that HE was waiting for me too.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">HE is teaching me something.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Teaching me not to give up.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Teaching me to trust HIM wholly.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Teaching me to be still and know that HE is the One in control.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Teaching me to let go and let HIM take over.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Teaching me to WAIT for HIM.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>Teaching me to understand and to embrace that HIS ways are higher, and HIS plans are always better than mine.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>The grandest thing that I have ever done to myself is learning and accepting that God does not intend me to wait, unless HE sees that it is good for me to wait.</i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">In that waiting era,</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I have understand HIS heart more.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I have trusted HIM more.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I have grown in all aspects of my life more, and I have loved more.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>I will never forget that HE who promised is FAITHFUL (Hebrews 10:13).</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Thank you my Daddy God. :')</span></span><br />
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<i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">“God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons that we could learn in no other way.” ―C.S. Lewis</i><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I find myself standing at the end of the road.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I see nothing and no one from a far,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Am I lost?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Am I the only one here?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Why does I feel like I am alone?</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I continued walking to the other side.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">A thousand thoughts are running in my head, and I keep repeating the last memories that I had before ending up here. I see the fields of trees nearby, the luscious green of leaves, and the variant colors of flowers blooming. Those are the most beautiful that I have ever seen so far, the most fragrant of smells indeed.</span></span><br />
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<i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Maybe this isn't so bad after all, roaming in this isolated place surrounded by wonderful scenes, making me realize that there's so much more I have been missing.</span></span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">From the farthest corner of the road upon turning, I saw a sign "This way to your home."</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am in doubt if ever I will follow that direction, but I would have need to trust my gut feel at the moment.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">There is nobody else here, is there?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">From whom will I ask?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Okay, maybe this time I would really have to trust myself in this.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Hope upon hopes, I turned left and took the road going to that 'way home'</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>―whatever kind of home </i></span></span>that it has been showing.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">As I continue wandering, I looked at the skies and saw the flocks of birds flying.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">There were so many of them</span></span><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>―seagulls, doves, pigeons. </i>I felt elated watching them soar, made me wonder if ever I would be like them just for a while.</span></span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">For a moment, I am jealous of those birds. They could go to places they want, at anytime they please. Their spread wings in the horizon are just too interesting to ignore. But after a while, I am glad that I am not a bird. I feel like it would be so tiring going to many places everyday, and flying amidst the air all throughout the rest of your life. I couldn't be more contented enough that thankfully I am not one of them.</span></span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am so tired of walking, I am starting to get thirsty. I feel like my throat has been roughly dry, but still I know there is a river or stream or any body of water out there.<b> I must keep going.</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">In times like these, I wonder if I am in an alternate universe perhaps? or the ones that I have been reading are really true? Okay, that is absurd.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It sounds crazy, but I miss the place where I came from.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The sound of running water is nearby, and I run to that direction. Upon reaching the stony path on the right way, I saw a waterfall. This is the first time that I have ever seen one. It is so beautiful</span></span><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>―crystal clear, calm. and vivid color of blue </i>streaming down. I suddenly drop to my knees and with my both hands pouring the water so I could finally drink.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">That was so refreshing. I felt ten times awake and rejuvenated. I also washed my face and arms afterwards.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">As I sit here in the grass, I saw a large boulder, more likely it seemed it is a gate, covering whatever that is behind. I really had a great feeling that behind that boulder is the 'home' that the sign had lead me to.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Think. </span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">How could I get through that?</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">How could I pass through?</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I know I am not a skilled climber or hiker but I must really try to do it. I would have to climb the rocks on the side, so I could jump at the top of it. Searching my surroundings I have found a vine to hold onto, and to make it my anchor climbing up. I had thrown the vine at the other side of the rock gate and hook it at the nearest branch of tree for it to steady.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span>
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">This is the hardest part.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am not used to heights and climbing but as I stepped my right foot, and hold both hands to the vine, I urge to step my other foot next.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It was swinging slightly, I am afraid I might fall right away.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"Lord, help me."</i>, I said out loud. I didn't notice that I was starting to cry fat tears and was not able to step up my right foot again to the next rock.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am hopeless.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I might be stuck in here.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I will not be able to make it through here.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"That is not true.</i>" I suddenly whipped my head upon hearing that edible voice. </span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">What was that? </span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Who is it?</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Am I insane?</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span>
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"No, you are perfectly okay and normal at the moment."</i> It answered.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span>
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"Who are you?", 'Where are you?", "Can you please help me?"</i> I replied. I thought I almost begged for the last one that I had said.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span>
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"Calm down child, You know me. You really do. I am where you think I might be."</i> The voice suddenly assured me.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>I knew right there and there who it is, and at that precise moment, I felt relieved. I felt safe. I continued crying as I finally realize that my saving grace is here. There is always hope, I am starting to feel alive again.</b></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"I was, I am, and I will always be forever in your heart child. You knew that, you would just have to trust me."</i> It affirmed me.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"I, I trust You. No matter how painful sometimes it can be, I am trusting you."</i> I replied, still crying with my outburst.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"I know. But those were the times that you trust Me and yet doubt still. I deserve nothing less than your whole trust, your whole being, your whole mind, heart, and soul."</i> It replied back.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>That whole statement moved me. It is really difficult hanging here in the vine and along with my emotional and spiritual feelings combined. Yes, it is true and I felt more remorse than I had before. At times, I only think of the things that I need to do, or the things that I need to say, to please Him, to obey Him but I totally forgot that no matter what I say or do, He will always be good. He will always be faithful to me. He is the one who gives and takes away. He is the One who is always in control. He holds my life, and if the moment He wants to stop the beating of my heart, He can. It's not about me, it is and will always be about Him. I would die trying to obey Him completely, but it will not always be enough if I doubt His works in my life, if I trust Him half-heartedly.</i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"Lord, I'm sorry. I really am. I am so messed up. I am not worthy of Your forgiveness, I might be the worst perso</i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>―</i></span></span></span></span></span></span>"</i> I bowed my head in defeat. My chest suddenly aches in the hardest way.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"My child, I have loved you with a loving kindness long before it all began, before you were formed in the womb. It is finished. Abide in me always, and I will abide in you. Now, I will bring you back home. Lift your right hand and close your eyes.</i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"</i> The voice promised me.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"Thank you. I will be forever grateful. I am ready now.</i></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"</i> I cried saying those words. It just felt so right, then I lifted my right hand and closed my eyes.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I felt a feathery softness touch my hand, and all the while I saw white. It was like a blazing brightness, blinding my sight. Then, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I finally looked around, and all I see is the familiar smell of my room, the unmistakable softness of my bed. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It was dream. Yeah, it was just a dream.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">But i</span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">t felt so surreal, possibly more than real.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I placed my hand at my chest, where the subtle beats of my heart resounds</span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―yes, I am here. I am alive. I am awake, and I am blessed.</i><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Sitting up, I prayed and poured out my heart to God for all the things He has done, and continuously doing in my life, and for this incomparable joy that I am feeling at the moment.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>As I reflect, and looked back on the past and the life that I have lived, sometimes God allows us to face circumstances in which it would test the very core of ourselves.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Sometimes, in those situations, it felt like it was a now or never battle that we need to face, that we knew deep inside that it's a battle worth fighting for. But often times, we have also forgot that it is not our battle alone but His</span></span><i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>―that apart from Him we are nothing. It's like chasing after the wind, utterly and inevitably meaningless and in vain.</b></span></span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Now I know, that God allows unanswered prayers, not because He loves us less when we sin but He wants us to realize that we need Him more. More than the prayers we are asking of. More than the things He could give or do for us. More than anything else before Him. </span></span><br />
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<i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I realized that I need Him. Him alone.</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">That He is the only answer to my endless 'whys' and buckets of 'ifs'.</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">That my life would mean nothing if I don't have Him</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―</span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">as my Savior, my Father, my friend, my Redeemer, my Counselor, my peace, my joy, and all the other attributes of Him.</span></span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>My life, and my journey begins and will end in Him.</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Thank you Abba Father for Your unfailing love.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">There's nothing good in me, but with a broken, a pure, a contrite, and a humble heart</span></span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―I ask that You seal my heart and make it a heart after Yours.</i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>“And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.” ―1 Corinthians 13:13</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>Love is not proud, love does not boast</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>Love after all matters the most</i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>Love does not run, love does not hide</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>Love is a river that flows through</i></span></span><br />
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Love will sustain, love will provide<br />
Love will not cease at the end of time<br />
And love will protect, love always hopes<br />
And love still believes when you don't
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Love is the arms that are holding you<br />
Love never fails you </i></span></span><br />
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When my heart won't make a sound<br />
When I can't turn back around<br />
When the sky is falling down<br />
Nothing is greater than this, greater than this</i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i><br />'Cause love is right here, love is alive</i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>Love is the way, the truth, the life<br />
Love is the river that flows through</i></span></span><br />
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And love is the place you will fly to<br />
Love never fails you
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The longest three days of my life, I supposed.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">It was a beautiful Monday morning, and I was on my way to Makati to conduct a training to our new partner. Though I was a little bit excited and nervous at the same time, I still held my head high and hoped that everything will work out as I imagined it to be.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">That event was a success!</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Our parents, the elders, and almost all the attendees were happy with everything we have put up, and of course everyone <i>(even us, singles)</i> were so blessed by Bishop Celso's preaching about love. Not that kind of your average love but of God's, not only that kind of "eros" love<i> to and from</i> your partner but that "agape" love that comes from God</span></span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―<b>the kind of love that transcends all wisdom and understanding of men. Yes, that kind of love that we cannot fathom no matter how hard we try. It's the kind of love that goes far beyond as east is from the west, and the kind of love that is immeasurable neither by height nor depth.</b></i><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">So summing it up, I had a great weekend! But reality comes in, a big day ahead for me.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Going back to my earlier story, it was my first time that I will train outside of the office's premises. My first time to actually train alone.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">As I went up to the venue, I knew the moment that I have stepped my foot on the conference room, I am so dead</span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―not literally though, it was an overstatement. </i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">From the look on their faces, there's no doubt that they are experts. The ones who have more experience in this field, in this industry. During the training, I felt so small being around them. They kept on throwing questions to me all at once, that made me even question myself about my own capabilities. I have really felt so intimidated and so inferior. At the end of that day, I went out early and directly went home. Inside of the cab, the driver was enthusiastic on telling stories of the current events, showbiz personalities and all, he was so talkative and suddenly stopped when he saw me at his driver's mirror that I was crying. Call me crazy or emotionally disturbed but maybe right then and there, I just couldn't help myself. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">My heart felt so heavy, and my mind was so cloudy of all the things that I have thought of</span></span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―that I'm not good enough, that I'm not smart like them, that I'm no pro, that I'm not an expert, that I'm not so on and so forth stuff...</i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">When I came home, I went directly to my room, locked the door, put down all my things and changed clothes, then that's it! I've cried myself on my bed, to the point of breaking down. I have prayed to God and finding comfort in Him, because I'm so awfully down and I'm so terribly worn out. <b>I've just poured out my heart to God, and let my tears fall. At that precise moment, I just felt how God comforted me, how HE embraced me with HIS unfailing love. HE reminded me to never give up, that in my weakness, HE is my strength. I faithfully thanked God for encouraging me to continue with my battle, to finish strong. </b>I was at peace when I woke up the next day.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Day 2 of training? It has been wonderful. Although, I admitted that the sulky feeling was still there, but I found solace during lunch break. I've called my longtime so-called "Ate" and youth mentor years ago, I was glad that I've talked to her and told her everything. She encouraged me and reminded me that all these things will work together for my good. I was overwhelmed and blessed by the words she shared, I forgot that I needed to go back to the building. As the afternoon surpassed, my doubts and fears totally wiped out when we all had our small talk during break. I've said to them that I'm a newbie in the industry, I'm not really familiar with everything unlike them, and they've understand. I've been true to myself, and to them as well and it felt good, really good.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">And as Day 3 continues, the realization just continued to hit me that I've done all this, that I've done my best and it's all worth it.<b> Now, I can see the smile on their faces</b></span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>―the kind of smile that makes me believe in myself more. It went well. I did it!</b></i><br />
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<i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">My realizations after that three days have been profound to the point that it just made me stronger.</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><br />To never give up.</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><br />To trust God more.</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><br />To believe in myself more.</span></span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Sometimes, the hardest battle is not what or who surrounds us but a battle within ourselves. I thank my Lord Jesus Christ for the wonderful and humbling experience, though it's been technically tough and challenging to train the so-called "experts". My inferiority almost eat me but God didn't allow it to happen, and instead reminded me that I've got HIS back.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I've learned so many things (the hard way), and I've realized that I am in no competition with no one but myself. I want to be better than the person I was yesterday. <i><b>I will choose to listen and believe in the VOICE OF TRUTH, that still small VOICE OF HOPE inside of me.</b></i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>“I thank you God for this most amazing day, for the leaping greenly spirits of trees, and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural, which is infinite, which is yes.” ―E. E. Cummings</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am at loss for words to deeply express how I am feeling at the moment.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">But Father, I want to give back all the praises, and glory that YOU deserve, and for adding and still giving me another year to do your will.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Twenty-four years of existence, and with every breath that I breathe,</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Lord, I want you to know that I am listening.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">As I celebrate this day, I remember and look back on all the journeys that I had.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am still in awe in the works of your hands, Lord</span></span><i style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">―speechless actually.</i><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Thank you, thank you, and thank you.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am your beloved, and YOU will always be mine.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am and will always be grateful to my Lord Jesus Christ!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>“The more we let God take us over, the more truly ourselves we become―because He made us. He invented us. He invented all the different people that you and I were intended to be. It is when I turn to Christ, when I give up myself to His personality, that I first begin to have a real personality of my own.” ―C.S. Lewis</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">New perspective.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Another year has passed by, and looking back in my life and the journeys I had, I can not find the words how to really describe the topsy-</span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">turvy turn of events.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>It has been beyond wonderful―more than I ever expected it will be.</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am, and I mean it from the bottom of my heart, blessed with so many things. Here, are some of the highlights of my 2013 experience:</span></span><br />
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<li><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Got certified as Microsoft Technology Specialist to two Microsoft Dynamics Solutions</span></li>
<li><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Been blessed to be delegated as the new Music Ministry Leader at church</span></li>
<li><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Had traveled Puerto Galera with my family and loved ones</span></li>
<li><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Tried to join the list of writers to Christian website: "Whole Magazine"</span></li>
<li><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Joined the free course training in "Writer's Bureau" website</span></li>
<li><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Given the chance to be offered and enrolled as a student in a Creative Writing school: "Writer's Bureau", one of the best writing institutions in England</span></li>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I know, it can't get any better but I will not stop thanking and praising my Lord Jesus Christ for all of the things He's been doing in my life.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I remember the times when melancholy hit me, and I even bother to make room for it in my heart. The feeling of sadness in the moment of stillness engulfed me.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i><b>Maybe, it was just a phase I had to go through. A path that needed to be walked on so I could get hurt, and learn at the same time, to be strong at the end of that road, and now I say, "It is worth it."</b></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The struggles.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The pain.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The hurt.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">All of it.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">These are all worth it, it molded me into the person God wants me to become. </span></span><br />
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<b style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am a working progress.</b><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">There is so much more to learn along the way, that is why this 2014, I want to make the most out of it.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>I want to explore. I want to travel again (whether in and out of the country). I want my talent to be more of use for God's greater glory. I want to meet new people. I want to learn another language or two. I want to fall in love again. I want to be a blessing to others. I want to do things, I have never done before <b>but I have learned to put all my dreams and desires into God's hands so I will not be disappointed</b></i></span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i><b>―not anymore. </b></i><b>HE never fails, and never will. </b>It is just about a matter of faith.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Sometimes, we are tested in so many ways, we never could imagine. I solely believe that p</span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">atience is just a test of our character.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">In this life, there are things that are outside of our control. </span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Sometimes bad things happen to us. Some of us have been hurt, abandoned, cheated, and left behind. <b>Some of us have made mistakes and are now trying to cope with how we will allow the repercussions and the residual consequences affect the rest of our lives.</b> Some of us are in the middle of a horrible and painful situations and feel so lost, confused, and depressed that we don't even understand how we got here, let alone how to get out. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Sounds familiar, right?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">But we really can not help it.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">What happens to us, happens also to everybody. We have the same common ground. <i><b>We are real because we are broken. We are broken because we will be made whole.</b></i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i><b>And I am made whole in Christ (Colossians 2:10).</b></i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I have remembered the passage I once read, </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b>"While I am busy looking up on the balloon, I have realized that there is an ice cream melting on my hand."</b></span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">The main thing I learned? It is taking time to appreciate the things you have, instead of staring at the things you want. Although good things come to those who wait, I always believe that the best things come to those who are doing everything they can while they are waiting. <b><i>God makes everything beautiful in His perfect time (Ecclesiastes 3:11). </i></b></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><b><i>HE always does, and it is proven. </i></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am excited for what God has for me, and what this year will offer.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Whatever obstacle will be thrown my way, I will not let my faith falter.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Life goes on, and on, and on. As long as I keep improving myself, and keep trusting God with all the endeavors I will make, I know <b><i>HE</i></b></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i><b> will work all things together for my good (Romans 8:28)</b>.</i></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"> I will not be moved and will not be shaken.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am rest assured that I am in good hands.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I am, and will be forever grateful.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Indeed, thank you, Abba Father.</span><br />
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<span id="goog_1358169008"></span><span style="color: #444444;"><i style="line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">“I knew that there were no guarantees. No way of knowing what came next for me, or him, or anybody. Some things don't last forever, but some things do. Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there.” ―Sarah Dessen, This Lullaby</span></i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The feet that seemed so eager to be here in this place a while ago to see you, will not even begin to move.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The heart that beats so fast the moment I saw your face, suddenly collapsed painfully in my chest making it harder to breathe.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>Gone.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The eyes that shines so bright the minute I held your gaze, stares at your retreating back, looking to the long and winding road you're headed to.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>Tears.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">They just flow.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">They keep on coming out.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I can not help it.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I wanted to catch all those that fell from the ground.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">These tears felt precious, they felt surreal</span><i style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">―painfully and evidently more real.</span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I hung my head down, I can not even look at your direction anymore.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I do not even want to, it hurts so much.</span></span><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">My heart is exploding, pounding inside my chest, screaming for great escape.</span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I do not deserve this, but maybe I do not deserve this kind of love from you.</span></span></i><br />
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<b><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">"Goodbye."</span></span></i></b>
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<b><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I really thought that this is easier said than done, but it was not for me.</span></span></i></b><br />
<b><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I was wrong.</span></span></i></b><br />
<b><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">It was a thousand times deeper of great despair when done.</span></i></b><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i><b>The words escaped your lips freely, flawlessly, and smoothly more than I ever thought possible.</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i><b>More than I can ever imagine.</b></i></span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">We used to be happily in love, we used to be happy. Period.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">But that was the word, "used".</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Past tense.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Long time ago, you asked me to break it off, for you to set things right and face issues within yourself.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">As the one who always understands, I agreed to your decision.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i><b>But</b></i> <i><b>I want you to realize that whatever you have to go through, you do not have to face it alone.</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>We are a team.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i><b>You have me, remember?</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>I am here.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>Beside you.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>Behind you.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>Anywhere near you.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>Anywhere you want me to be.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>Always.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>But the thing is, you wanted to be alone.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>You wanted to be left behind.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You wanted to be away from me just once.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">At first, I thought it was some kind of a sick joke, or an understatement that have gone overboard but looking through your eyes, I know it was not.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">So I realized, I needed to. I have to.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I would definitely spare the silent plea in your eyes after saying so.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I know giving you the space you need will help me trust you more.</span></span><br />
<i><b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">But maybe, I trust you more than I should</span></span></b><b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">―more than necessary</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"> to the point of breaking my heart twice.</span></b></i><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i>Long before, I thought the ones who love us will never leave us.</i></b></span></span><br />
<b><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I thought you are far from the usual.</span></span></i></b><br />
<b><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">But I was wrong again.</span></span></i></b><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Weeks.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Time has passed by, and spending it without you, made me feel something is really missing.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I tried to tell you how I felt the moment you cut me off, off your life for a while and it sucks.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">It really does.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Not until now.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Not after you finally bid your farewell merely half and a million seconds ago.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">This is so vivid, crystal clear, and whiter as snow.</span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i>You are gone.</i></b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i>You are really gone this time.</i></b></span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i><br /></i></b></span></span>
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You are not the same person who asked me to give you time alone.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I thought, the person who left a while ago was not you. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Maybe I knew deep inside, that it was not you when you came back.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Maybe all along, I knew things will get to this, the moment you asked me out to talk over things that have had happened between us.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">We are caving in, we are slowly drifting apart.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">We wanted different things. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>And maybe I knew right then and there, it will all be over.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>Now it is really over between us.</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">There is no longer an "us".</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">As I sit here by the bench, I hugged myself tighter.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Closer.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I wouldn't want to let myself go.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I wouldn't want to let it go.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>I wouldn't want to let you go.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">My hope of forever is on the line, our promise of lifetime commitment is on the brink of sinking now.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>You have your reasons.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>You are lost.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I wanted to find you.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I wanted to tell you that everything will be alright.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I wanted to just love you all over again.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Asking me to set you free is harder than I could ever imagine, and it was like diving into white-water rapids and having no desire to hang on to the side. Throughout the current, it was wild, exciting, and risky, I might have died. </span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I couldn't help but try to stay with you, to keep pace with you, and to not let you out of my sight.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I have been hanging and holding it all together for too long</span></span><i style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">―that I had forgotten myself.</span></i><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">But I can not be selfish anymore.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i><b>I know that you can not love me in the same way before, and in any possible way if you don't love yourself first.</b></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i><b>You can not make me happy, if you are not happy anymore.</b></i></span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I can not deny you of that.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You need it more than I do.</span></span><br />
<b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You need to find your way back home.</span></span></b><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Though I am hurting right now, I have no regrets.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I do not want to live knowing that I would be happy with someone else, or knowing that you will find someone new.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">All I know is I did the right thing.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">There is no easy way out, out of this pain, out of this anger, out of this despair.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">This is unfair but I can not blame you.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I do not want to.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I can not blame myself either.</span></span><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I am just mad because I miss you.</span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1].[0]">I am mad at you for leaving me alone with my thoughts, for allowing me
to wonder if you were more than just a bully or a pain in the head.</span></span></span></span></span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1].[0]">I am
mad at you for perpetuating that stupidly unbelievable humor, for
letting me think it was true, or what I thought it was, for missing me
again.</span></span></span></span></span></span></i><br />
<b><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1].[0]">A miss that had left me shaking and speechless, and most
importantly for making me realize that goodbye is a wonderful opportunity
for us to appreciate all the great things the next hello would give us.</span></span></span></span></span></span></i></b><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1].[0]">I miss you.</span></span></span></span></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1]"><span data-reactid=".r[5g2ce].[0].[1].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[0].[1].[1].[0].[0].[0].[1].[2][1].[0]">I really do.</span></span></span></span></i> </span></span><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I miss you even more after we part.</span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I know I will miss you now, and tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, and the days after that.</span></span></i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"> </span><br />
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<i><b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Someday, I can learn to forgive you, I just can not do it now.</span></b></i><br />
<i><b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I do not know when but definitely I knew it in my heart that I can.</span> </span></b></i><br />
<i><b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The scar you left is an open wound needed to be healed by God ten times deeper.</span></b></i></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The amount of sadness I feel is the kind of sadness that will go along with time.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The loneliness will surpass eventually.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>It is not easy.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>It will never be easy to understand at how, where, and why things have to end this way.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>Of all the questions, I have asked myself these a thousand times,</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i>"What went wrong?",</i></b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i>"Am I not good enough?",</i></b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i>"How could you do this to me?".</i></b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>There you go, you are gone for good.</b></span></span><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">There goes my forever, there goes my heart.</span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">What a bittersweet memory!</span></span></i><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">A memory.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">That is what you are, b</span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">ut thank you.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I know this will make me stronger.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">This will make me wiser.</span><br />
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<i><b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I pray to God, to heal and to m</span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">end my broken heart.</span></b></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>I couldn't have it any other way.</b></span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I pray that even if I am no longer a part of your life, </span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">that even if I am no longer have a special place in your heart, </span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I still wanted to say that </span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I will always be a friend, that a</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"> part of me will always stay with you.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">There is one thing I ask of you, it might be nonsense now, but hear me out, just this once.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">This might be the last time I will ever say this,</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i>"Please don't forget me, my love for you goes beyond depth, beyond time, and it will take all of me to make this feeling end, </i></b></span><b style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>because I will always remember you...</i></b><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i>I will not forget that you left...</i></b></span><br />
<b style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>You just left."</i></b>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;"><span style="line-height: 19.5px;"><i>/*This one is not from my own personal experience, this story is of my friend's. My friend's experience moved me, and inspired me to write this. I just put a personal touch to it. I can relate to the story somehow, 'cause I have been there, and had done that. I solely dedicate this to those who were left behind by the one they loved, and to those who got lost along the way...*/</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><i style="line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">“But maybe that isn't so bad. You can't love anyone that way more than once in a lifetime. It's too hard and it hurts too much when it ends. The first boy is always the hardest to get over. It's just the way the world works.” ―Sarah Dessen</span></i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">You know it's been so long since the last time I saw you.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Probably the longest time we didn't talk and I haven't heard your voice.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You would even think that this is all absurd, </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Don't worry, t</span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">hat's what I've thought too.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">But I wanted to ask you something. Something that I terribly missed saying to you.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I hope you don't mind.</span></span><br />
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<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">"Was it easy?"</span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">
<br />I mean, was it easy leaving me? You know, saying all the good stuffs, thinking of forever, and all the future with me?</span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">"Was it easy?"
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Walking away like we were nothing? or like I was nothing? Pretending you care about me the most, but I wasn't even aware that I was just your second choice?</span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Was it worth it?"</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">
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Moving on fast paced and then you looked back in your life, and realized that I'm just a so-called "verse" in your song. The "setting" in your story, and the "space" between your first and last sentences?</span></span></i><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">And lastly,</span></span></i>
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<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">"How did you do it?"</span></span></i>
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<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Going through each day like I never really mattered?</span></span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I might never know the answers to these, and maybe I might never hear those answers coming from your lips. Believe me, I've tried. I've tried so hard to erase you and your memory in my heart but I just can't. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>Probably, I never will. </b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You know, you were the first one I have deeply fell in love with.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You were the first one who told me that "I am special."</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You were the first one who told me that "Serving God with all of my talent, with all of my mind, and with all of my heart is worth it. It's the highest calling of one's purpose."</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You were the first one who swept me off my feet, and made me head-over-heels in love.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You were the first one who made me love and embrace music more, since you showed me how it can brighten up one's mood.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You were the first one that made me feel beautiful, happy, and loved all at the same time.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You were the first one that I have told to "Please take good care of my heart."</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You were the first one that I have ever trusted with my unguarded emotions.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You were the first one that I have held hands with.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You were the first one that I will ever miss, even if you're right there in front of me.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">And with so many things, I could not even write it all here.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I am afraid I might run out of words, s</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">imply because <b>y</b></span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>ou were the first</b>.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">As what Johnny Depp had said, <i>"If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one. Because if you really love the first one, you wouldn't have fallen for the second."</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">But why?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Why does it have to be in a point of you getting confused?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">If you really have loved me, you would not think twice.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">There would never be choices in the first place.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b><i>But I was wrong.</i></b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">I admit, I really miss how things used to be.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">But I can also admit that I have accepted the fact that things have changed.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><b>You will always be my favorite "What if" and "If only".</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Too many high hopes.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Too many disappointments.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Is it wrong to love a person, to let him be happy? with someone else, even if it breaks you?</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">I thought that you would not give up on people you love, but there will come a time</span></span><i style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">―a</span></i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>n inevitable circumstance in your life</i>, that you would have to.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Not because you love them less, and they have hurt you but because you love them so much you are willing to catch all the pain just to make them happy.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">With or without you.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Heartbreak.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">My first ever sentimental scar.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">It was like the first roller coaster ride headed to melancholy and right passing through doom's end. It felt like it<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI'; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"> was a genius of sadness, and I had immersed myself in it, separating the numerous strands of emotions, and appreciating its subtle nuances</span><i style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">―all at the same time</span></i>. <b>I felt like it was a prism through which sadness could be divided into its infinite spectrum.</b></span><b>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I think that the worst part of it, is not losing you, it was losing me.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">It felt that when I lost you, I actually lost myself too.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">But that was long gone, I just wanted you to know a fraction of how did it feel</span></span><i style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">―at least to me.</span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Hey, I know this is so irrelevant now, but I just wanted to say "Thank you." </span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I don't know why I am saying this, but it feels right.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>It feels so right.</i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">There were so many things that I am thankful for having that wonderful experience.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Maybe, "thankful" is an understatement actually, but perhaps I can't have it any other way.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>God made me realized that I need...</i></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>To love Him more than anything else, more than anyone else,</i></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>To trust Him more than I ever trust myself,</i></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>To place and entrust my heart in God's hands and guard it in the most possible way I can,</i></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><i>To value myself worth, and refrain from finding happiness in the arms of somebody else.</i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The tears made me wiser.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The hurt made me stronger.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The remnants of my<i> once broken</i> heart made me braver.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Thank you, I have learned so many things, so many things learned the hard way.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Thank you, I have seen how God mend all the broken pieces of myself.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Thank you, I have hope and still believe in true love</span><i style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">―the one that God had prepared for me, that man who loves God more than he loves me.</i><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Thank you, I have experienced all the enigmatic and surreal mix of fantasy and reality.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The joy, the sadness, and all those feelings in between.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I have no idea and would not probably know when will we ever meet again,</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">but when that time comes,</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I will show you my best smile or maybe I could even hug you or maybe I will do both</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I would never know the faintest idea then.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Mr. Time holds the moment, I would have to guess for now.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I want to remember your face.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I want to remember your smile, and</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I pray that you are always happy, safe, blessed, and loved.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">I just want you to know, that you will always be my special memory</span><i style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">―</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">that a </span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">part of you will always stay here in the farthest corner of my mind, and </span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">that you will always occupy a little space here in the </span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">deepest recess of</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"> my heart.</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"> </span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I can trust that every sunrise offers possibilities.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Every day holds beautiful moments and new dreams, <b>waiting for me to come, and find them.</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><i style="line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">“I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.” ―Nicholas Sparks</span></i></span><br />
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<i>I have tried to block your memory to protect me from the pain,
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<i>pretend I never knew you, and never heard your name.
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<i>But the walls are not strong enough and I fight my tears in vain.
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<i>The feeling came creeping through and the hurt is still the same.
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<i>I wish I could forget you, or make you see me now.
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<strong>—All those words above were written million and a half hours ago. I know, it's been so long.</strong></div>
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<em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;"><strong>Love hurts when God knows we deserve someone else.</strong></em><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">It's just that you can not possibly say that, that person really is the one.</span><br />
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<strong style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">Someday someone might come into your life and love you the way you have always wanted.</strong><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">If your someday was yesterday, learn.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">If your someday is tomorrow, hope.</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">If your someday is today, cherish.</span><br />
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<em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;"><strong>The one God has meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep, and the hardest to accept because through all that love will grow stronger, bonds will become thicker, and the future will become more clear.</strong></em><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">Everything is going to be alright. It may not be today or tomorrow,</span><br />
<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">but God will make sure you are okay in the end.</span><br />
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<br />Genelady Erickahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00477470781873653168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7147474122652831310.post-31565712388225834352013-08-22T18:18:00.001+08:002014-06-09T16:50:49.733+08:00A Loud Throb<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">At a distant silhouette of him, I barely don't know what's going on.
He seemed so afar and rankled, yet he still occupies my mind.
Isn't it hard to look at him, when I want to regret it slyly afterwards?</span><br />
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<em><b>How could it all be wrong when every moment of bliss feels so right?</b></em></div>
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and certainly there's no one to inculpate for every sudden emotion I am feeling right now.</div>
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<em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">I openly took hold of everything just to be with him, but maybe I took it for the worst.</em><br />
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Somehow, I thought that everything is just a sham, a lie, one in a million false pretense, and purely adventitious.</div>
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<b>But my heart goes at directions my mind can't.</b></div>
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I've known we've gotten a long way already, <b>way too far to put all these behind.</b></div>
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We both knew we could not be together.</div>
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We could never be.</div>
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Simply because of "Who I am, and who he is.".</div>
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<em>I am in hurt right now.</em></div>
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<em>I hate the feeling of vulnerability surpass me.</em></div>
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Paroxysm has already filled me.</div>
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Was my emotions engraved within my very soul?</div>
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I hear my heart cries even more.</div>
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Being so pathetic away from him.</div>
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<em>If we could only pick up what we'd left,</em></div>
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<em>and pursue what we really feel,</em></div>
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<em>I knew I could never been happier in my life.</em></div>
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<em><b>As my tears silently fall, he dared took a chance to look at me again.</b></em></div>
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<em><b>Hoping those piercing eyes could hear what my heart has to say,</b></em></div>
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<em><b>Of all the things that it has to be, and should have been.</b></em></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>A/N:</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>I dedicate this to all who loved and got lost along the way.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>/*November 4, 2008*/</i></span></div>
<br />Genelady Erickahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00477470781873653168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7147474122652831310.post-32494182898883327952013-08-19T15:37:00.000+08:002014-06-09T16:49:27.097+08:00Flightless Birds Across The Horizon<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #444444;"><i style="line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">“The day I understood everything, was the day I stopped trying to figure everything out. The day I knew peace was the day I let everything go.”
―C. JoyBell C.</span></i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>Have you ever felt that you've been alone for so long?</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">As if you're really in a crowded place, being with people, enjoying everything that has been happening, and yet there's this still small voice inside that keeps whispering to your inner soul.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You want to be happy.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You are trying to be but you just seem can't.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Being used to getting hurt is never easy.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>It never was.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>I don't think it will be easy to suddenly make it go away.</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Have you ever felt being so numb from the pain and yet you're still asking yourself,</span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">"Why does it still hurts?"</span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">There's so many questions running in your head, yet you can't put everything into words and still you want it to somehow release you from your sacred haven</span><i style="color: #444444; line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">—the world you created.</span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">That world is so far away, only you can fathom its height and depth.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">A world built from walls and burned bridges.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>A place you can call your own.</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Being inside your world makes you feel alive.</span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">It boils the blood through your veins.</span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">It awakens your sunken soul.</span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Beneath the morbid shadow of yellow and blues, this place resembles your sanctuary.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Your refuge.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">The serenity and peace it offers makes you feel restless.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Home. At last.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><br /></span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>But it is never enough to stay in your beautiful world.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>Sometimes, there's a need, there's a hunger to fly away and make a great escape.</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">There will come a time that you wanted to search and go forth to something you have been longing to find.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">To seek the answers to the questions that you never thought you wouldn't get answers to.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">You want to take flight and let the wind lead you where you can go.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Let the soft breeze carry your wings, and free your spirit.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;">Let it free your burdened soul.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>Let go.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.5px;"><b>Let it go.</b></span></span><br />
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<br />Genelady Erickahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00477470781873653168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7147474122652831310.post-57479084040587817722013-04-25T09:10:00.000+08:002014-06-09T16:48:14.224+08:00Of Tulips And Dreams<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #444444;"><i style="line-height: 19.5px;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.</span></i></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Coming straight from the bottom of my heart, my lips start quivering as the words refuse to flow out my fingertips.</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Not all scars show, not all wounds heal.</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">What's the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>I am having second thoughts about how far I should go into the story.</i></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"> </span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Every night I talk to the stars pretending as if they have emotions of their own.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Though they're all far away and never reply to my questions.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>Let the moon stay still, with every movement, of the flower as the rain falls.</b></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><b><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in?</span></span></b></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Do
not assume that those who seek to comfort you now, live untroubled
among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>Their lives may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remain far beyond yours.</i></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>Were it otherwise, they would never have been able to find those words.</i></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>those words almost a hypnosis that carries on its will.</b></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><i><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I will not be broken.</span></span></i></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><i><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Just live and breathe, again.</span></span></i></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b><i>There once was a time, when silence meant nothing to me.</i></b></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Staring at the world, through the hole you put through my head.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">It was like slowly falling to pieces, and painting a colorful mosaic, of autum leaves on the ground.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Yet the still wind, and rain move continuously on its pace, <b>like a flower but still there is light.</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>But no more fragrance, no more petals.</i></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>Just like the wind and the rain.</i></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Though my eyes told of forever, but yours they're frozen in a hailstorm.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>November wrapped you gray, and December saw you fade away.</i></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">So when you've finally made up your fickle, ever-changing mind.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>Make your way down to the boiling heat and bleeding sky.</i></span></span> </span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>Look for me and reach for my hand</b>, <i>and I'll let you know that I'm doing all I can.</i></span></span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>/* Made last January 19, 2012 at 03:02 AM*/ </i></span></span></span>Genelady Erickahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00477470781873653168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7147474122652831310.post-56145011199335478862013-04-20T00:22:00.001+08:002014-06-09T16:46:32.170+08:00One Last Look<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>“</i></span></span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><i><span class="firstword" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">The</span> most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of because words diminish your feelings - words shrink things that seem timeless when they are in your head to no more than living size when they are brought out.</i></span><i style="font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><span style="color: #444444;">” ―Stephen King</span></i><br />
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<span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>I smiled back as he walked away, but all the lovely butterflies in my stomach landed one by one in a cold, dead heap...</b></span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>"It should have been so easy."</b> I said to myself. But now I understand more that it is not. It was and never will be easy to say the things that have been kept inside me for so long.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I remember this passage I had read a long time ago:</span></span></span><br />
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<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">"One of the deepest looks that cast a heavy weight on my heart is the look people have when they turn around their shoulder to stare at their love walking away.</span></span></i><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><br style="line-height: 14px;" /></span></i><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">It’s such an emotional expression on their face which cannot be simply described; a smile of serenity and tenderness mixed with pain and sore. It’s like there’s nothing in the world around them but vanishing dreams and dead hopes.</span></span></i><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">Yet the</span></span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">y’re still there, watching their loved one walk away.<br />They don’t stop them. They know it’s in vain.<br />They don’t even turn around; it’s like stolen gazes.<br />But they keep staring.<br />Quietly.<br />Silently.<br />With that fading ever sweet smile.<br />A smile of memories and the once-upon-a-time fantasies.<br />A tear or two slide down their cheek, leaving tainted sparkles.<br />It’s sad.<br />And what’s worse is that their looks suddenly go down – when the shadows of their loved one disappear behind the bushes — a moment of realization.<br />The world gets back; the trees, the birds, the cold breezes and the chats of strangers around.<br />The earth is turning and time is ticking again.<br />They give a smile…and continue walking in their own direction.<br />Never knowing if they’re going to meet that person again.</span></span></i><i><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; line-height: 18px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Understanding, alas, that they were never meant to be."</span></span></i></blockquote>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">There. Imagine what exactly a person feels after that one last look.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><i>Painful.</i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><i>Inevitably too painful.</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">With that one last look, you slowly turn your back...and </span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">try to move your feet forward.</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Maybe this has been my great escape and my choice at the same time.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><b>I didn't know that it was possible to continue walking, 'til I realized that I have walked so far.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><b>So faraway from him.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><b>Him and his memories. </b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">From that moment, I locked up my heart and erased what has been there for so long, I knew that it would take time for it to be opened again b</span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">ut I don't mind.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">All I know is that I'm tired of fighting my feelings for and to unknown reason, and I'm tired of being hurt in silence...</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">In silence, I cried.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">In silence, I loved.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">In silence, I said goodbye...</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><b>Maybe it has to be this way or it should be this way.</b></span><br />
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<b style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">"I am sorry it took so long for me to catch up, I just got stuck.</b><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><b> I will not regret the day I had feelings for him but </b></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><b>I was just sorry for allowing those feelings to hurt me and to hurt God." </b>I sincerely said to myself, and with these words along with these tears flowed freely. I knew this could get any better.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">It will be better,</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">and I will be...</span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><b>I will continue walking away.</b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">More than anything else, I am glad that I learned to give and to take.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">I am happy that I had loved him.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">Even if I didn't expect him to love me in return,</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">Ev</span></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">en if he didn't love me at the time that I did, I feel it in my heart that he loved me in the best way he knows how..</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"><br /></span><span style="color: #444444; font-family: Segoe UI, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">No words have spoken, no actions done but the string that holds our hearts will remain and that connection will never be forgotten.</span></span><br />
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<b style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">I felt it.</b><br />
<b style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Segoe UI', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">I just knew.</b><br />
<br />Genelady Erickahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00477470781873653168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7147474122652831310.post-74022751570454462442013-03-17T00:49:00.005+08:002014-06-09T16:45:08.398+08:00With Arms Outstretched<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>“I'll spread my wings, and I'll learn how to fly......take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway...” ―Kelly Clarkson</i></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>Breakaway.</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">from myself, I am more. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>Fly.</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">from doubts and fears, I will take flight and conquer them. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>Move.</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">ahead of my past. Learn from it, and look forward to new perspective.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I am on the verge of doing all these at once.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Greater things are yet to come...</span></span></span> </span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I am better, no I am my best when I let go...</span></span></span><br />
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<br />Genelady Erickahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00477470781873653168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7147474122652831310.post-71783570854569930502013-02-26T00:29:00.001+08:002014-06-09T16:47:15.212+08:00Once Again At The Train Station<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>“The restlessness and the longing, like the longing that is in the whistle of a faraway train. Except that the longing isn't really in the whistle—it is in you.” ―Meindert DeJong</i></span></span></span><br />
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<b><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">If you were a train, I’d be your tracks...</span></span></span></b><br />
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<b><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">FLASHBACK</span></span></span></b><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I boarded out the train, and stayed walking in the platform until I bumped into someone. I squinted my eyes, I guess my head had a terrible hit with this stranger. As I tried collecting my things scattered on the floor, I noticed that this person was too familiar</span></span></span><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>―</i>way too familiar.</span></span></span><br />
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<b><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I knew right then and there, it was him. </span></span></span></b><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">We both said "Hi" at the same time. Great.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">He smiled. Those eyes, I don't know what's with him. I was stuck in place, I forgot I was headed home. I started to walk right past him without saying anything, but this tiny voice inside my head keeps telling me to stay and talk to him for a while. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">No. There's nothing to talk about. Is there?</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I was on a constant battle with my mind until suddenly, my feet stopped.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I looked back at him, he's going away.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">He's gonna be far now, "Come 'on Gene, call him.", I told myself.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">So okay, I called his name.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">And then he stopped walking.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Right, so he stopped. He turned around and looked at me. My heart started to beat faster and I'm talking to myself like "What now? What are you gonna say?"</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>"Hey, Uhmm. I was about to go home. Let's wait together for a ride, if that's okay with you?"</i> I said. Where did that all came from? No turning back, here I am. Here he is. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I am smiling after I spoke and heard him say,</span></span></span><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">"Sure. Let me go to the restroom first. I'm stopping myself to pee for a while now."</span></span></span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I laughed.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Yes, not that loud but I don't know, I think it came out naturally. Then we walked together downstairs, and I waited for him outside the men's loo.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span>
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">He came out with this huge smile. I was nervous and a little bit out of my mind I didn't hear him talking to me.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>"What time do you go out? and where are you working again?"</i> He asked. He was taller and his legs are longer, he was walking ahead of me.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>"I go out at six, sometimes seven. Whatever time I want. I'm still working in Makati."</i> I answered, now we're walking side by side. I catched up. I noticed that we're going inside the mall, and it is far from the FX terminal, we could have took the shortcut instead, but then I asked, <i>"Why did we take this way? It's farther and the mall exit would be closed soon." </i></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">No answer.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Just the brisque sound of his footsteps.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>He's walking fast, he always does. Nothing much has changed, I guess.</b> I was getting awkward and wanted to turn around and walked away, when he said, <i>"I always wanted a long walk. Walking relieves me from stress."</i></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Ohh. Is that so? <i>"Really? I bet you're so stressed."</i> I joked.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><b>He smiled.</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Why does he keep on smiling? </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">We're almost near the exit, when suddenly I felt his shoulders brushed mine. I also felt that he almost put his arms on my left shoulder on our way out.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">As if assisting me, and leading the way.</span></span></span><br />
<b><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">He's always like that. A gentleman.</span></span></span></b><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I saw the queue to the terminal, and was about to say "Thanks" and "Bye" to him, when he said, <i>"Let's ride the jeep instead, it'll take us hours when we wait for the FX to come."</i></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Whoah.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">The nerve.<i> </i>I will not ride on a jeep. Period.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>"I'm not riding a jeep for a long time, and I don't want to try now. It's scary."</i> I said.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Now he's suggesting to take a jeep? What's wrong with him? Always the "street-smart" type. <b>But I know deep inside that maybe, just maybe, he really wants to talk to me. It's been a million and a half hours ago. It's been a long time, since I've seen him and had a chance to talk to him, until now.</b></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>"Nothing bad could happen, you just have to always pray. And besides, I am with you."</i> He said.</span></span></span><br />
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<b><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I am with you.</span></span></span></b><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Four words he uttered. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I was stunned hearing those from him. </span></span></span><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I looked at his back as he was now waiting for a jeep to pass by. </span></span></span>What is happening to me? My eyes are starting to get misty. My heart feels like exploding, I bit my lip controlling this. My emotions are doing a topsy-turvy, I hesitantly walked forward. The jeepney came, and it didn't seem to help 'cause we're sitting next to each other.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I focused myself looking at the other side, so he wouldn't see my face. Thoughts are running in my head, memories coming back, and the courage to let it all out and finally talk to him is on the verge of bursting now. I can't help it, I was on the edge.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>"Say something. Tell something, what's keeping you? and why are you going home alone?"</i> He asked. He sounded a little bit concern or that's what I thought.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>"How's everyone? I haven't heard anything from them. Are you still in touch with your friends?"</i> He continued when silence came. "Great. How could he know, he's the one not into Facebook or Twitter, and he's the one who got away or the one who choose to go away." I said to myself.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>"They're fine. We're hanging out sometimes, sometimes we all meet up for a coffee or tea chat, and go home together. Me? I was planning to resign, eventually in God's perfect time, He would give me the best job I deserve. I am now a Youth and Song Leader at church, I am forever grateful to God for all of these. You? What about you? What's new?"</i> I asked. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">"<i>I'm happy for all the things you've said."</i> He smiled at me.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I looked at him, and trying to figure out the look in his eyes.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Lord, this is it. It's been this long, I don't want to let this chance pass by. I am stronger, I want to say the things that have been kept inside of me for years. I can do this.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>"I'm happy too."</i> I said, as I tried to blink away the wetness in my eyes.</span></span></span><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">"You know, I'm glad that I've seen you again, and here we are talking like we just saw each other yesterday. I am happy with what's been going on with my life, God blesses me so much, more than I had ever asked for. Every time we had our retreat at church, there's only one thing that I've always been surrendering to God</span></span></span><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">―you. Yes, you. <b>From that time, from the moment I was hurt, I find it hard to forgive you. Every time I cry, every time I remember, it was always so hard to forgive you. But 'til that one day, I gave everything to the Lord, all the hurt, pain, anger, hatred, and all the feelings in between</b></span></span></span></span></span></span></i><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i><b>―I surrendered it to God, and with that I am free. I am new. I am who I am now.</b>"</i></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I looked at him, and he was teary-eyed. Maybe a little bit shocked. </span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">So I continued,<b> <i>"But I forgave you. I had forgiven you a long time ago, and I'm happy that I did."</i> </b>I was now crying with tears of joy. At last, I said these to him. I didn't mind if my voice was audible enough for the others to hear me, or my eyes were wet with tears, all I know is that I helped myself spill it all out.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i><b>"Sorry. Sorry for what had happened. God had taught me so many things since then, but more than anything else, I am proud of the woman you are now."</b></i> He said while looking deep in my eyes.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<i><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></i>
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i><b>"And I'm also proud of the man you've become."</b></i> I smiled to him, showing him how happy I felt. With that, I bid goodbye and thanked him for a wonderful time as I went out of the jeepney.</span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span>
<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">A night to remember, and a night to thank God for fixing what has been broken for so long</span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i><b>―our friendship.</b></i></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span>
<b><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">END OF FLASHBACK</span></span></span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">It was a year now since that night.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">A figment of my memory that will be marked forever in the deep recesses of my heart.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">I learned, and I am continuously learning.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">Love. This is the greatest feeling to be felt.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">Someday, my God-given Prince will arrive.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">He will come, and ask for my hand.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">He will pray for me.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">He will wait for me.</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">Him, a man after God's own heart.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">I might not know him right now, or wherever he might be </span><span style="font-size: 14px;">but no matter how many stars I see at night, I
could always be certain of one thing—we're just under the same sky. He
may be far, but not too faraway.</span> </span></span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #444444;"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><b>I will wait for you, my Future love.♡</b></span></span></span></i><br />
<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"></span></span>Genelady Erickahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00477470781873653168noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7147474122652831310.post-50628133224085148532013-02-22T21:14:00.000+08:002014-06-09T16:43:14.659+08:00Pink Petals Drifting Away<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><i>"It's not what you hold in your hands that you can call your own. It's what you have after you've opened to let them go."</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">I might not know when or where</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">it will lead me,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">but I will not stop</span><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;"><span class="st">—</span>letting go.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Under the velvet sky,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">amidst the air I look again.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">'til the memories of you fade away,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">'til the tears in my eyes dry,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">'til all the petals in my hands disappear.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Soon my heart will be free,</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">as I continue erasing your memory.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">and forgetting what it has to be.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Segoe UI",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="color: #333333; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Forgetting all that we'll ever be. </span></span><br />
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