“The very first tear he made was so deep that I thought it had gone right into my heart.” ―C.S. Lewis
At a distant silhouette of him, I barely don't know what's going on. He seemed so afar and rankled, yet he still occupies my mind. Isn't it hard to look at him, when I want to regret it slyly afterwards?
Somehow, just the glimpse of him fired up all the heat inside of me, and I can't deny the feeling of warmth sensation swept over my body, that sent shivers to my bones the moment I held his gaze.
How could it all be wrong when every moment of bliss feels so right?
and certainly there's no one to inculpate for every sudden emotion I am feeling right now.
I never knew that having without him in my life scared me to death though, I live my life in amenity before he came.
I openly took hold of everything just to be with him, but maybe I took it for the worst.
Complications got on the way.
Somehow, I thought that everything is just a sham, a lie, one in a million false pretense, and purely adventitious.
But my heart goes at directions my mind can't.
I've known we've gotten a long way already, way too far to put all these behind.
We both knew we could not be together.
We could never be.
Simply because of "Who I am, and who he is.".
Rivalries and iniquities has its bait to spoil and screw everything between us, and it's parlous.
I am in hurt right now.
I hate the feeling of vulnerability surpass me.
Paroxysm has already filled me.
Was my emotions engraved within my very soul?
I hear my heart cries even more.
Being so pathetic away from him.
If we could only pick up what we'd left,and pursue what we really feel,I knew I could never been happier in my life.As my tears silently fall, he dared took a chance to look at me again.Hoping those piercing eyes could hear what my heart has to say,Of all the things that it has to be, and should have been.
A/N:
I dedicate this to all who loved and got lost along the way.
/*November 4, 2008*/
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